I know I spend a large portion of my writing talking about the benefits of a good diet, giving our bodies optimum nutrition and avoiding foods which trigger inflammation.
What we eat does matter and will make a difference to how you feel and your endometriosis. However, there is more to this than just food.
I have spent the last few days with my family and though we love each other very much, there are inevitably heated discussions and much of the old baggage seems to come up for me. For the first time in years, my endo pain has reared its ugly head. It is nowhere near as bad as it usually was but it certainly has revealed to me that it is still there.
There is a big part of our healing journey that perhaps we don’t always want to acknowledge. I know for me it is often easier to just make this all about food. I find it easier to control food. I can take ownership of what I eat and put into my mouth, whereas emotions and all that stuff seem to just come up with no logical reason behind it. It also feels so incredibly vast, like there are just layers and layers of emotions and past pains that want to be resolved. Emotions feel fickle and because endo brings with it so many ups and downs, we do sometimes wonder if we perhaps are being overly sensitive like many of our friends and family suggest to us.
The reality is that these emotional burdens and pains will weaken our immune system and our ability to fend off disease. They essentially weaken the body’s ability to heal. Scientific studies have actually revealed that our individual cells change and react to positive and negative stimuli from the brain. So, when we get worked up and angry, this will directly impact our bodies’ individual cells and our natural ability to heal. This anger, worry, resentment, jealousy and all those negative emotions also use up essential vitamins and minerals in the body and what’s interesting is that they create an acidic reaction in the body. Acidity in the body creates further inflammation.
This is why it is also counter-intuitive to spend a large portion of our day worrying about how bad our endometriosis is getting. We are creating worry and anxiety, which then inevitably creates inflammation, which then makes our endometriosis feel worse. Kind of ironic really.
It is for this reason that we need to focus on things that feel good. Focus on doing things that make us feel good and avoid any moments or times which trigger bad emotions. This can sometimes be hard to avoid. If you have emotions like anger or resentment that have been lingering for a long time, it is almost habit to think about these things excessively. I think we do this as a way to try and work out a way to cope with these emotions better but the reality is, they just become more manifested within us and we find it harder and harder to let them go. I know I spent a large portion of my 20s just focusing on all these things that I wanted to change about myself, my family and wanted to understand why they were the way they were. I believed that if I understood where they were coming from, then perhaps it would offer some alternative view and perspective that would somehow make it all so much more bearable. It never came and though I thought about it and discussed these things with various people in my life, the reality was… it wasn’t helping my healing on either a physical or spiritual level. What I needed to do was forgive and find a way to let things go. That was not easy to do as my daily routine involved thinking about these things on some level. I found myself thinking about it at breakfast time, when I woke up in the morning and even before I went to bed at night. Little things would remind me of the wrongs that I felt were done to me. Moments in my life would trigger feelings of anger and resentment.
There was only one thing that really helped me break this cycle. I needed to expel the pain, the emotional pain and attachment I felt about certain events and situations. I found Emotional Freedom Technique. Initially I didn’t really think it would make any difference or that it sounded too good to be true but I tried it and within one hour of doing it, I had managed to expel huge portions of pain that I felt around my mom and my perceptions of wrong-doing on her part. The very same thought patterns I had thought about when it came to my relationship with her disappeared. I simply no longer worried or thought these things about her. I had a new perspective and it didn’t come from overthinking but rather from releasing the emotional pain I felt around that situation.
My relationship with my mom improved immediately. Without the clouding of my emotional pain, I was able to understand her better and see that her intentions were never as harmful and bad as I had initially perceived.
I know that emotional healing is a much longer road that does require heaps more patience from within us and when we are ready, we can focus and release more pain. I know that when I experience anger or resentment or jealousy now, that it is an opportunity for me to expel more emotions from my thoughts and my body.
If you have a heap of emotions and pains when it comes to your life, your family or any situation that you have been trying to heal, it might be worth exploring Emotional Freedom Technique. I honestly don’t believe we can expect to fully heal without releasing these negative emotions. What do you think?