I know, you probably don’t think of endometriosis as something beautiful. Most of the time we spend far too much time cursing and wishing it away but there is a beautiful side to having endometriosis that I have discovered. It manages to fill me up with a deep love, gratitude and an amazing sense of self, which I never believed possible. It has been my indirect blessing for having endometriosis and sharing it with the world.
This beautiful side is often not available to many women with endometriosis. These women live in shame, in hiding about their endometriosis and they wish that they could just somehow conceal their pain and somehow find a way to just get through each day. The more they fight the endometriosis, the more its voice seems to perk up and they spend such a huge part of their day using up huge amounts of energy in just fighting the strongest desire to break down and cry. I know this feeling well and endured many years of experiencing endometriosis just like this. Hiding, wishing and hoping. Hating, angry, resentful. I didn’t want anyone to know. I wanted to be strong and I certainly would never be caught crying in front of anyone. I spent many nights just wondering how to get through it all. I felt so terribly alone. So lost, confused and fumbling for answers.
Imagine a place where you could be connected and feel virtual hugs from around the world. Imagine a place where you could ask any question about anything and have everything answered. Imagine meeting other women with endometriosis that could reduce the burden of your load with it. That they could share in your pain, support you on your healing journey, and guide you with the steps you want to take. That in this place you would meet the most amazing women, who gave you so much inspiration for healing, gave you a wonderful free feeling of acceptance and ultimately supported you to feel better. This place exists.
I created a support group over a year ago. It is such a beautiful space and it has shown me the truly beautiful side of endometriosis. It is the love and support given and shared freely by so many women from around the world. Without knowing each other, we have come together and have given for each other. This is truly such a beautiful thing.
It still amazes me that we have all found each other. Women with the same giving abilities, the same compassion and love. It is truly awesome! We have women from across the globe, from all different cultures and nationalities, who can come together and just be there for each other. It is like our own little family.
I don’t think many of these women realize just how special they are and how much their giving and support helps other women.
I received the most beautiful email today from a young girl, who has been within the group and following the various comments and responses. Though she didn’t feel quite confident enough to ask any questions at the beginning, she felt such a sense of love and acceptance just from reading what the other members had written. She couldn’t believe that such a fantastic place existed for women with endometriosis. There was no bitchiness or nasty negative talk, no one telling her she was silly or that she shouldn’t do certain things because they wouldn’t work anyway! She could share anything and ask anything and she would always receive an answer. One that was able to guide her and truly help and most importantly give her real hope that she would feel better.
I can’t tell you how amazing these kind of emails make me feel. I feel such a sense of pride for starting this group but mostly I feel gratitude and love for all the women who have come together to create such a space.
So, I wanted to thank you all personally for creating the most amazingly beautiful space for all of us with endometriosis. I also want you to realize just how many lives you touch, without always realizing it.
Endometriosis can be beautiful. We just have to focus our lens on the things that reveal it to us.
PS. If you would like to join the Support Group, please follow the link.