I used to get panic attacks about my health often. I would experience pain or some other expression by my body that it needed help: chronic diarrhea or constipation, stomach burning, heartburn or just an intense headache, and I would instantly get all worked up about it. I experienced this yesterday for the first time in a long time. See, we have been looking after a lovely house in the South of France. We are basically staying here for free in exchange for looking after the owner’s pets. Among the pets are two little kittens. They are super cute! The trouble is, yesterday we discovered that they had worms. Unfortunately, little kittens also have a tendency to poop in all sorts of spaces and that meant, cleaning it up! Well, instantly I started to get all freaked out about these worms. I started to believe that they would enter my body and mess up my digestion, absorb all my nutrients and create all sorts of chaos. It was pretty scary, the “wormy” thoughts in my head. I even had “wormy” nightmares last night!
It was only this morning, after some lovely chamomile tea, that I started to really research the likelihood of this happening and even if it did, what the solutions and options might be. I realized that most of the answers that I researched, I already knew. I knew it on an instinctual level. I knew that the little wormies were unlikely to survive transfer to humans and that even if they did, I could use the same herbs and tools I would for fungal and bacterial imbalances in the gut. Oregano oil, grapeseed extract and various foods and teas which work on an anti-microbial level.
Here’s the lesson in all of this. We have perhaps become used to thinking the worst things with endo. Our doctors probably didn’t give us a huge amount of hope or positive news—mine simply said: it is just something you have to deal with! We are used to just dealing with pain and also worrying about our health. I know I would spend at least 3hrs a day (in total thinking time) worrying about my health!
What we need to realize is that this panicky thinking is just not good for us. It freaks out each and every cell in our body! We get all worked up and upset about something we don’t even know for sure is happening or is going to happen. The “freaking out” is possibly making us feel even worse than just the symptoms of what we are dealing with. I used to get this with endo pain a whole lot. I would get an inkling of endo pain and instantly my mind would take over and I would start imagining the worst! I would work myself up so much that the pain would just intensify and get unbearable. I am sure you know what I am talking about.
I actually had to learn a very important lesson with this journey and endo. We just have to fall into whatever is going on. I mean, we need to just surrender to it. If we are experiencing pain, let it sit there. Stop fighting it so hard. Stop worrying about it so much. Just let it sit in there and be there. Try and stop all thinking, especially that negative stuff! Just fall into it and let it take over and it somehow becomes more bearable. A friend actually told me her midwife recommended this approach with labor. I know this is not the natural way for us to be as we are strong and we are fighters but all that energy of fighting is exhausting. Maybe try just surrendering to it and giving in to it but please avoid the overthinking in the process!
By surrendering and not panicking and thinking the worst, we can become more open. We can open our mind to possibility and can truly aim to figure out what is going on in our bodies. When we are constantly going, “I am in pain! I am in pain!” over and over again, we cannot move past this and try and find the source of that pain or how to learn to listen to our bodies to avoid it coming up again. I had this recently with a friend of mine who was experiencing constipation. She was so stressed out about having constipation that I believe the stress of it all made it worse. When she finally surrendered and just said, “Oh well, I am just constipated!”, suddenly she started to get signals from her body that she just couldn’t hear before. Her body was craving potassium as she had simply eaten far too much salty food the days before. She drank heaps of coconut water and rehydrated and filled up her potassium and really relaxed and the natural flow all came back again.
I get cravings for food and drinks all the time. Sometimes I know exactly what food group it is and can fulfill my body’s desire easily. Other times I misread it and reach for chocolate instead! We have an inner intuition and knowledge of what our bodies need and want. We have to start listening to that voice again, even if it is a little faint sometimes.
So, please don’t panic when things aren’t always working as they should. The answers are all within your reach. Sometimes it might take some research and sometimes you just need some coconut water. Whatever is going on, no matter how serious, there are answers out there. We live in an amazing time! We have the internet and we have access to books and a wealth of information. It is only when we are calm enough to be open that we can truly read and absorb everything that is presented before us.