The last few weeks have been quite challenging. I feel like I have been on a rollercoaster ride with my emotions going up and down and in all sorts of different directions! Half the time I was excited about new prospects and the other half, I spent wondering whether or not I was truly aligning myself to my true potential—yes, a very heavy thought… filled with the endless funnel of more heavy thoughts!
It has given me heaps of time to truly reflect on myself and in doing that… I inevitably turn to those ridiculous theories you probably have come to expect from me! This one is probably one of the worst ones, as it has no real medical logic behind it but nonetheless, it is a theory and it would be interesting to see if it resonates with you.
I don’t know about you but when I was younger, I used to drive myself really hard. I always wanted to be the best; I wanted to be “successful”. I pushed myself and tried various different ways to get ahead of the pack—mostly thinking too much. I was head-strong and determined and there was nothing that would stand in my way! If something was worth getting, it was worth fighting for… and all that kind of talk! I did jobs which pushed every part of myself and tested my strength. I was going to fight like the big boys!
This is where the theory comes in. The more I fought and drove myself, the worse my endo got. I would bury it and keep going—I was strong after all!
My theory is that these are very male dominant features. That drive, the pushing, that fighting… they are very MALE. Now, in the hormone world, there are two opposing hormones to the female hormone: the estrogens and the testosterones. The predominant female hormone is actually progesterone (that is actually a medically based fact). Progesterone is all about reducing, calming and slowing down growths and inflammation in the body.
So, my question is this… as we drive ourselves with our thoughts, perhaps…. we also drive or manipulate our hormones? In other words, the more driven we are and the more male tendencies we have, the more we push down the naturally soft, female progesterone hormones.
Estrogens create growth and build stuff and when we are adamant about being successful, much of that success is a drive for “more”. We want more money, more responsibility and more material things. Are we perhaps indirectly creating more “growth” with endo by having this “more” mindset?
The theory goes even further than that. I have always felt that my endo was much better when I had something in my life that I could nurture—like a pet or a partner. I also think this may explain that deep desire of many of us to have children. We want to love something and care for something! I think this would drive up the natural progesterone in us—on some mental level. So, we think about loving and nurturing and it will trigger more of the natural progesterones. I also think this explains why, when we look after ourselves by caring for our bodies, taking heaps of time out and doing creative and “nurturing the soul” kind of things, that we feel better.
I know this is a strange connection to make and I would love your thoughts on it!
The conclusions are obvious:
- Focus on being grateful for what you have and stop always wanting more of what you don’t have.
- Love yourself, love those around you and enjoy giving love to others.
- Push yourself to give, rather than to take.
- Always be true to your real emotions.
I know it is a little out there and perhaps there are some things that don’t quite add up about this theory but I found the correlations quite interesting… what do you think?