It is the first day of my period today. I feel lousy. Really lousy. I haven’t changed anything for the negative. As a matter of fact, I have incorporated many things that are supposed to help my healing. I have added Vitalzym, Chinese herbs and been eating really well. Everything that I have been recommending to do, I am doing and yet….I am still really sore. It is frustrating and on some level it can also become quite stressful – not that this helps matters much!
So, I looked over my diary over the last few months and realised just how many painful days I have been having and the connection became clear. My Endometriosis healing hasn’t felt like it has been getting better since dealing with my dad’s passing in August. The first two months I possibly didn’t make the connection but looking back over the last few months, it has all become clearer and more obvious. It is the emotional pain that I need to confront and heal, before I can heal my Endometriosis pain.
It is so deeply connected and it is so obvious to me now, just how powerful our emotions are with our healing. In a book I read ages ago, called “The Journey”, it is described as a pain that impacts on the intricate cells in our body. The individual cells actually have a memory and this memory is passed on to the new cells that form in the body. This explains why Endometriosis just grows back again, even after an operation or if we use treatments to flush it out. Nothing should require continuous “cleaning out” as the body renews cells every 2-6weeks. In theory, then we should only need to take supplements for 6weeks and replace the poor cells with new ones, containing more of the good stuff – right? Unfortunately, the cells retain the memory of the previous cells and duplicate what is there.
Since my dad’s passing, I have been struggling to see clarity in my life and it has affected me on a very personal emotional level. I had no idea on how badly until today. Until I reviewed my diary and really noticed the correlation with how it affects my Endometriosis pain. Every day that I have felt completely lost and disconnected, my Endometriosis would flare up, a day or so later. Not severely, but noticeably.
What you need to appreciate is, prior to my dad’s passing, my endometriosis was really doing incredibly well. I was strong, both mentally and physically. I had incredibly energy and my pain was nearly non existent. I really felt like I was on a path of complete recovery and felt like it was only around the corner before I would get there……
Have you ever wondered why some women don’t get Endometriosis? Why is every women in the world exposed to toxins, poor diet and poor lifestyle choices and not every woman in the world has Endometriosis? The only difference between us, is our personalities and our emotions that we hold about our past. How we perceive our past and how we perceive who we are is so inter-connected. It creates who we are. Thing is, it is also how we perceive and react that relates to our emotions.
If you have ever explored the connection between this emotional aspect in healing, you will recognise how powerful it is. I explored Emotional Freedom Technique over a year ago and I feel it is something I need to delve into a little more, since recognising the strong connection. Emotional Freedom Technique works by tapping into our emotions and allowing them to exist and then be released from the body. It sounds really complicated but it is actually incredibly easy to do, even on your own. The session I had done before was reasonably easy as I knew the exact issues within myself that I wanted to tackle. With my Endometriosis, I actually have no idea what the emotional connection is and why it is still there. Though I believe I have tackled some of the aspects of my Endometriosis developing…. I think the real root of it has not yet been explored.
So, that is my goal…. explore my personal emotional pain connection with Endometriosis. I will try to tap into this on my own – after doing more research on Emotional Freedom Technique – but ultimately I might use a trained consultant again, so I know I am on the right track. It is hard to do it on your own as sometimes you feel like you are just loathing in self pity 🙂
Do you believe there is an emotional connection with Endometriosis? Do think we can heal the emotional pain and thereby heal Endometriosis? Love to hear your thoughts 🙂