I must admit, sometimes I feel like the odd one out in certain environments. I feel like my diet makes me different and makes me stand out and because of it, I feel somehow excluded from the “normal” way of eating. It is not that I desire any of the foods that are considered “normal” but I wish the foods that I ate were considered more “normal.” I get tired of being labelled the “weird hippy chick” or the “health nutter.” I wish other people understood that eating burgers and fries is not good for you and is certainly not “normal” or natural according to your own body’s design.
This has only really become apparent to me since traveling. See, you stay in other people’s homes and meet people who perhaps haven’t made the connection between food and health. I am still in the minority in most parts of the world.
The trouble is that we all want to feel a sense of belonging. I know I do! I hate feeling excluded or made to feel different. I don’t mind if people notice I am different because I look better or have more energy but I don’t like being made to feel silly or strange. I guess no one does! With food there are many moments when I do feel strange. I feel like I have seen what has been in front of me all this time: you are what you eat and yet somehow it feels like either other people don’t care or they just don’t get the connection. I can’t understand why more people aren’t ditching the gluten and sugar and diving for the fruits and vegetables!
A week ago, I met a girl who totally inspired me. She was from a part of Canada where eating raw and drinking spring water is the norm. She carried coconut oil and spirulina in her luggage and honestly, she was even more “hippy” than me! I absolutely loved it! It was so lovely to meet someone with whom I could share all my thoughts on health and nutrition and who could relate to how much it had improved her life!
She indicated to me that I should come to Canada and that I would feel more connected with people as they were all on that wavelength!
It did get me thinking…
To me, there is huge comfort in surrounding myself with like-minded friends and people who are similar to me, but this is where it gets interesting:
I want to help people who haven’t made the connection with food and healing! Sure, I can understand that having a support group of friends who understand what I am all about is important but in the same sense, I will lose connection with the very people I am trying to help.
See, for me to write this blog for you I need to understand you and I need to understand the challenges of changing to a new way of eating, for healing. I need to get that you feel excluded too and that in many situations, we revert back to gluten or sugar or alcohol to fit in. Don’t feel bad! I do it too! In certain environments, like with family or friends, where they have gone out of their way to make me a meal, I can’t exactly say, “Sorry, I don’t eat most of these foods that you have just spent an hour preparing!” I also get moments with alcohol. I feel left out of a group or like I stand out too much when I don’t drink. I sometimes just order an apple juice and have it in a wine glass, just to feel “normal.”
I hate that this is considered normal and I hate myself for wanting to fit into this way of …well, let’s be honest, treating our bodies badly. I hate that it’s cool to eat McDonalds and that “beer is the best thing” after a long day’s work. I hate it because it is all giving people misinformation. The very foods that are promoted as fun and hip and young are really the foods that are going to make you fat, ugly and sick. I only wish more people got this!
I guess I have been feeling quite uncertain with myself and what I want to do with my life at the moment and this weakens me… in a strange way. I feel somehow lost and disconnected and have little idea on what I really want to do. Normally, I can perhaps just brush off the funny comments and jokes about how I gather spring water but at the moment, it just makes me feel really alone and like a lone warrior, trying to convert the world. I don’t feel like my usual strong and determined Mel, ready to face the world and show them how!
I know she will return and perhaps something perfect will present itself that will fit in line with what I am aiming for. However, for now, I guess I wanted to share how I feel and hope that you can share your experiences too.