I think the last few weeks have finally taken their toll on my body. As much as I have tried to “be good” and give myself time to adapt and take things easy, I unconsciously just …. didn’t. I have started a new job running a slightly run down lodge, moved to a new place and am still processing all the stuff with my dad being terminally ill, without really “being present” in any one of those and well…. I think my body finally gave way last night and said: STOP AND LISTEN!
I remembered the old feelings of Migraines as it approached. Noise was painful. Light was unbearable and the only solution seemed to involve me, hurled over the toilet emptying out whatever lay in my stomach. It was just nasty. I felt shacky, teary and just plain rotten. I used to suffer from Migraines frequently. When I was a teenager. I remember them well. They were usually brought on by some emotional episode with my mom and because I didn’t know how to process it and I simply swept it under the carpet, days later, it would inevitably lead to a Migraine. I used to use suppositories as my pain relief. The frequency was scary – monthly for probably 2years!
Thing is, I never realised the reason why I was getting them. Now, being a little wiser and a little older, I guess I have noticed the correlation between them and my emotional wellness.
At the moment, it feels like my head just won’t shut-up. Everything is going around in my head. Am I in the right place? Is this for me? What is the meaning of life? – yes, even this one! It is like my head is literally bursting with information going around in it! So, my theory is, that this is perhaps the reason I got a migraine last night. Today, my head has slowed down. Mainly, I think because all that thinking does require energy and I have been feeling quite tired all day. It is as if my body is shouting at me, saying: You need to stop thinking so much!
The same thing used to happen with my Endometriosis. On days when I was super stressed, it would flare up. It would force me to spend a day just relaxing and taking it easy, for it to go down. Once again, my body saying: slow down and take it easy!
I guess this is indirectly a positive. It kinda forces us to listen to our bodies and treat it with more respect.
I used to hate that endo would do this. I wanted to be like everyone else – run and run all day and feel nothing for it. Thing is, it is not good for anyone to treat their body badly. It is simply asking for trouble!
It does pose a question on why we do what we do. Why do we drive ourselves and why do we push so hard?
Sometimes, I think the natives of Fiji or Africa or any other natives, have figured out something we just haven’t! Life doesn’t need to be “successful” or “have meaning” or any of that. They are happy to just live in the moment and enjoy life. I envy that as I wish I could be like that more. All that other stuff just causes so much stress and we loose sight of what is really important – those we love and creating memories of things we enjoy. Simple…..
Do you suffer from Migraines? What are your thoughts?
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The message is right at the end. Great movie and so much valuable stuff in it 🙂
Do the best you can and a little is okay. Just avoid having whole meals of it and you will feel heaps better for it . I replaced things gradually and now don’t even miss it!
Glad to hear the headaches are easing and things are getting better 🙂 I always know when my period is due as I tend to get a headache the day before. Definitely a signal of something from my body – wish it was a little bit more clear on what it wanted though 🙂
What movie was that Meliissa? Yes… I am cutting out gluten. But it keeps slipping in to my foods, so I have slip ups.
Thanks for your blog, it’s full of all sorts of interesting things about endo. I too suffered from migraines and definately (still do) headaches. The migraines seem to have eased off in the last few months. The last month or two I’ve only had headaches here and there, nothing too intense that I have to leave work though, so this is great for me 🙂
I’ve always been a vegetarian so that part of adjusting my diet was easy. Since April I have been really strict with my gluten intake too (it’s so hard, I miss fresh home baked bread!) BUT my headaches seem to have diminished, I’m touching wood here and hoping they stay away for good.
Keep up the good work
I reckon they are also hormonal – I shall do some more research soon 🙂
Good thing you recognised it 🙂
Thanks Jane and thanks for sharing. A headache and migraines are all signals from our body and though I can see that getting a drug that gets rid of them so easily would be considered “gold”, they are still not getting to the source of the problem – unfortunately :). I noticed my headaches totally disspeared when I cut out gluten – perhaps this might help. I think my migraine was hormonal plus emotional and I will keep searching on a way to reduce the hormonal impacts of endometriosis – without the side-effects or imbalances many of them seem to cause. In the meantime, I am going to drink heaps more home-made juice and fruits and flush out whatever is going on in there!
I watched this awesome movie today which reminded me that ultimately life is more than “being successful” and all that but rather it is about what you leave behind – the memories and positivity you can give others that ultimately matters more. Really good advice and made me realise how much more I want to do for this blog 🙂
I have suffered with migraines for about 3 years. Prior to that I just used otc meds and got by. Then my doctor prescribed suppratripitan (generic of initrex). It is the only med that works when I have a bad one. I get by with the other otc meds for the ones that aren’t as bad. My insurance does not pay and the pills are about $20.00 a piece. I call it “gold”. I do not waste any of it. I try to get by with a third of a tablet and literally lick the powder when I cut it. If I don’t have it. I am miserable. I absolutely hate the headaches … And this past 2 weeks I had a headache every day. I totally understand anyone who has to deal with the pain. I really feel for you.
Any remedies,.. let me know. Stress is no doubt a big factor and do I ever wish I could just live Life doesn’t need to be “successful” or “have meaning” or any of that. I wish I could just take hold of that advice and just be happy to just live in the moment and just breath in today and just be glad. I am so quick to give that advice to others but not live it out for myself. I need a manual and I need constant reminders.
Bless you for your posts Melissa. Love you.
My migraines began as a sign of CFS/ME developing. They decreased in a dramatic way after I quit my job- there was a culture of workplace bullying. So for me, yes, it was stress related.
My migraines are back again.
I can’t seem to shift them, no matter what I do. 🙁