Do you find you often feel “alone”? Do you associate alot with emotions of “being alone”, “loneliness” and “abandonement”? Could we share this, along with Endometriosis?

Do you find you often feel “alone”? Do you associate alot with emotions of “being alone”, “loneliness” and “abandonement”? Could we share this, along with Endometriosis?

Looking back over last year, the hardest event, was the passing of my dad.

During that time, the hardest emotion was the emotion of…feeling alone, deserted, everything was meaningless and insecure. I wanted support and something to change. I felt so very, very alone. Isolated, separated and lost.

To be honest, I hadn’t felt these emotions for years. When they came back, they felt oddly familiar and somehow scary. I used to feel them so strongly when I struggled with Endometriosis almost daily. I felt that no-one understood what I was going through, that I was alone in my struggles and that the meaning of life had somehow been stripped because of Endometriosis. I would feel so isolated, like it was my struggle and that there was no-one else on the planet that could be experiencing this. Even if there were others out there, with endo, they seemed to be coping with it so much easier than me. They would shrug it off, like it was just an “inconvenience at times”. I would slip into a further sense of struggle and a strange selfish mourning took over. I would get angry at myself, my body, my life and I was over taken by a sense that none of it could ever be controlled or softened.

I became quite withdrawn from all of this. I didn’t want to explain to people why I couldn’t go out, why I was sore or have to explain it all, every single time. I hated that others seemed to all have such normal lives and here I was sitting at home, again…with my hot water bottle and a movie! At least in that space, I could sink into my selfish mourning and just let it all be. I was embarrassed that I had endo. I was embarrassed that somehow I had done something to deserve it. That I was a bad person, on some strange level.

I was so incredibly young and I was so easily taken by my doctor, who kept telling me that my dreams of running a Coffee Shop were not to be. I fell into the sense of “this cannot be cured, so you just need to live with it”. I believed them.  I thought they knew best for my body…. I believed them, when they illustrated that my body was weaker and that I had to endure this. It was my fate, it was all I had and somehow I almost identified with being an “Endometriosis sufferer”. That gave my life some sense of purpose for a while……..

 

Looking back on those days, makes me aware of how easily we can fall into this space. I think we all share the knowledge that at some point, we have felt this way. For some of us, it may have been months, for some of us it may just be a day out of the blue. We share this. So, even if we feel alone in our struggle and that, each one of our struggles is different, we certainly share the emotion of being alone and struggling – kinda ironic!

Since then, my life has changed dramatically. I learnt that Endometriosis doesn’t need to be a life sentence. That we can control how we feel and that is heaps of power over this condition. The biggest thing that I learnt, is that we are not alone. There are so many girls out there with Endometriosis and yes, we all struggle with it on a different level and perhaps in different places but we are all emotional and we often share the same emotions about it.

Once I had cried enough tears of self mourning, I became aware of a brighter future with Endometriosis. I started to delve into the condition from a personal self discovery perspective. I recognised the attachment of emotions to Endometriosis and the strength of healing those emotions. I changed what I ate, did things I loved doing and really took each day as a positive step towards feeling better. Giving my body the best that I could.

When my dad passed away, I was really struggling with it all. I lost all sense of meaning in life and there was a deep sense of loss, far beyond just the loss of my dad. I realised that I couldn’t heal this one on my own. I booked a session with Anna and it was amazing how much it transformed everything. I had this session just before Christmas and since then, I feel back to my old self again, with a sense of purpose and that “is is okay to be happy”.

 

So, I know it doesn’t feel like there is hope in anything sometimes, when you struggle with Endometriosis. I know you sometimes feel isolated and alone with it all. I know because I too have felt what you are feeling. Thing is, we are lucky now…. we have the internet and you can reach out, in so many different ways to share our story or just to recognise that this struggle is not ours alone.

If you are not sure how to find others online, check out some of these Forums and Facebook pages:

http://www.facebook.com/groups/endonatural/ – this is one of mine

http://www.facebook.com/groups/EndometriosisAngelGateway/

https://www.facebook.com/groups/PowerfulEndoWomen/

 

Forums

Endo Natural

 

Also, naturally I am here for you too 🙂

http://www.facebook.com/endoangels

 

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Big hugs,

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  1. Hi Mel,

    I received this update on a cloudy day when i was feeling lonely and a bit depressed. sometimes it seems like we are alone with the diets and i know you understand how it feels to have to explain to people why you cant eat certain things, and even worse what Endo is and how it affects it etc…and sometimes i find its just really hard to deal with. I have to say though that reading your blog helps me to feel less ‘alone’ and perhaps im not the only one suffering with what to eat with no dairy, gluten and meat. I have noticed thought what a difference it can make and it is just so nice to have that emotional support as well there from you. Thank you a lot again. And it made me smile when i opened the email update on my phone, yet i was feeling sad and lonely.

    Lana

    • That is awesome! It was like I was reading your mind and I was able to be there for you, in that very moment! Love it! Just think about how happy your body is for not giving it all those nasty foods! Believe me, it is not good for anyone and you will be rewarded later in life too! It will make you younger, smarter and happier to eat better!
      Hugs,
      Melissa

  2. Wow Melissa. I can identify with so much of what you said in your blog. I think it is even becoming more apparant to me as I feel skepticism towards any new doctor. I recently went to a new doctor, who a friend told me “changed her life” I wanted to change so much and have a “renewal of mind, body and spirit” that I made an appt for a consultation. I go back for a followup next week. But still going with my gut feelings that it is is ENDO related. He ran 25 tests on my blood and a comprehensive stool analysis. Not being a doctor the results(I got a copy) don’t seem to0 abnormal. Only time will tell. At least he does not want to medicate me.
    I have also felt so alone with this disease. I guess because the last time I had surgery the doctor said you are fine .. I didn’t see any endo. Case closed!!. I never spoke to him again.
    I am changing what I eat ,and still working on what “brings me alive” What motivates me.. What brings me joy. I think when I get that figured out. There will be a renewal. I guess I am fustrated and angry with myself that I have not changed. I have stayed stagnant.
    It is hard when I have so many friends that think medication is the answer, or surgery…
    God and all you angels out there are my strength.
    Thank you.

    • Hi Jane.
      It is funny but when your inner body begins to truly heal, it somehow opens up our minds and the “fog” somehow lifts with all of that stuff too. Just let it go for now and focus on just you and your healthy body and I am sure you will find your true joy and what motivates you. I find I loose sight of all of that stuff when I am tired and sore. I am reading a book on detoxing at the moment, so I will share the conclusions with you soon 🙂 Big hugs sweetie and know that I am here for you!

  3. Wow! Thank you for sharing these feelings and emotions.

    You are an amazing person and an inspiration to many! I am soooo glad to have found ‘you’ and take great comfort in reading your articles.

    Thank you!!

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